Jin Live - 7/5

Otsukare sama deshita

As usual, my commentary in green

• I want to say hi but no one's here yet~

• I now get why j-hope would turn on lives after his concert performances looking half dead~ being like "hello everyone" - yea I totally get it now

• I find myself in that same state for this live

• It's been a while since I've done a live overseas so here we are~

• 10 years ago, a Japanese fan taught me an 'aegyo/cutesy phrase' "Eat Jinnie, Kkot (Flower) Jinnie, Seokjinnie"
  does it and is immediately embarassed lmao

• Shrimp sashimi, lobster because I'm rich, it doesn't smell fishy~

• Aren't my PJs beautiful? I designed it. I carry around the bag as well.

• I have no appetite but they prepared this for me so I will eat [sorta like out of gratitude/manners~

• Shrimp first - imma take one bite

• I don't eat the radish here because I already know it'll be too spicy

• You were sashimi too huh [to the shrimp]

• Today, I had the concert in Chiba - I had so much fun and it was so exciting

• I talked about it in the concert too but

• this is good oishi oishi (re: lobster)

• I talked about it during the [Chiba] concert too but - in the past, when we used to do our group BTS concerts, there was a lot of applause when I performed Epiphany, SO...

• but okay so I thought that this concert - since there are so many high energy songs... as we were planning out how to conduct the show in Japan* - I was most probably MOST concerned/worried about how to involve the audience in a way that kept the energy just as high/invoke an energetic response ("jump jump") from the audience

this is because Japanese culture tends to be more understated in the way they express emotions outwardly - preferring quieter/reserved ways of appreciating things - even during celebrations. This, obviously, does NOT mean Japanese culture/people do not FEEL intensely/experience deeply/etc. but as he considered how to thoughtfully engage the culture/maybe having to mitigate his expectations - he worried a lot...

QUICK ASIDE: so I also want to take a second here to say if/when I-ARMY badmouth other ARMY (namely Korean because hi, I'm 🇰🇷🇺🇸 and can only speak for myself) from cultures they do not fully understand by saying things like "they weren't loud enough" "they didn't do XYZ enough" "they were too quiet" "and thus, they don't deserve BTS" - it irks me deeply. You don't know what ANYONE else is going through or what feels the most expressive per their story - so it's one thing to feel your confusion or disappointment privately because you're unaware - that just is what it is. But it's another thing to publicly assert judgment/condemnation over something you don't get... this applies 100% across the board ~all the time - not just re: BTS, right?

SO - if you ever have questions re: Korean culture stuff w/ a posture of curiosity - I'd be happy to try to respond/answer and I'll just be super honest if I don't know~~~ but if I sense entitlement I have ZERO qualms about refunding + blocking ignorance on a 3X & YOU'RE DONE basis. We all make faux paus and deserve some grace. But more than 3X of the same type of violation speaks to who you are~ & I lowkey recommend this to anyone who needs a rubric for building healthy boundaries - a balance between endlessly enabling trolls vs. short-sighted cancel culture

okay back to shenanigans

• BUT! turns out - I worried for absolutely no reason YAYYY!

• before the concert even started - during soundcheck - everyone was SO playful/responsive.. like

• in Korea, since the concert happened while it was brighter out, I didn't see the ARMY bombs as vividly - but this time, since it was darker, I could see the ARMY bombs super clearly

• when they did the lasso motions [with the ARMY bombs] to Rope It, and to the beat too!

• seeing hundreds of ARMY bombs rotating at the same time - I told my director that actually maybe we don't have to worry so much about the engagement...? and my director agreed

• so at first - I'd considered taking a more tempered approach - but then after soundcheck, I actually discussed leaning even FURTHER into the wild/energetic vibes

• surprisingly, in Japan - they didn't record on their phones

• from the POV of an artist on stage- since they want their audiences to be responsive, it was SO nice

• I liked it so much

• there are instances where people can't respond because they're too busy filming/taking pics

• but here, since almost no one was doing it - some 20thousand? people, all together, were jump jump

flails arms to demonstrate the jumpeu jumpeu; is apparently wearing his PJs w/ the tag still on; the tag flaps and he tries to pull it off to no avail - please rewatch this 100 times (timestamp: 7:56)

• but all 20thousand people were jumping together - it was REALLY fun and it was such a happy time shared

• there are cultural differences for sure but from the POV of the performer, for sure it felt really great not to have as many people just on their phones

• of course, I appreciate the filming too to an extent - when I get home and wonder how I did - I do look up reviews and those vids do help me

• but as far as today goes - for those 2+~ hours of the concert, we had so much fun together

• I got to see peoples' eyes looking back at me rather than camera lenses/backs of phones

• Like 20K~ ARMY bombs moving together during Rope It made me SO happy

• ...so happy that maybe I used up... so much energy.. I practically crawled home

• man.. the deference I have for hobi

mm yommy
ajfdklgja;ldfjg;lakdfjg so cute i am ded

• also - singing w/ the fans - people sang well~ I do think that Loser is quite high

• Loser is high even for me.. actually more than it being high - I have to hold my note/breath for so long to sing Loserrr sings

• I have to hold a high note for so long - and every time I have to do that part, I nearly run out of air and I have to put so much strength into my abs - so I don't even want abs but I feel like I am acquiring them ...

• but since hobi has the abs - I will be giving mine up

• yes

• it is quite taxing/physically exhausting

• also... i wore a hanbok but there's a downside to hanboks I learned...

• the little strings to tie the hat - the other little straps - they hit my in-ears, my legs

LOLDJGLKJGLKDJF AT THE WEVERSE TRANSLATION RE: MERMAID - here's what happened:

"in ears" = 인이어, it's a phonetic spelling of the English words "in-ears" pronounced in-eeyuh

weverse's auto translate phonetically picked that up as 인어, pronounced eenuh aka the Korean word for "mermaid"

• it really hurts when something hits me while I have the in-ears in actually
• it hurt.. so I took it off beforehand
• I don't know the outfits so, ideally, I'd have adjusted/modified/figured everything out beforehand but I can't because I don't know which outfits I'll be wearing until I have to wear it - on stage
• so I have to adjust AS I walk out on stage

takes a min to noms

• doing the concert alone - it's difficult cuz usually when we do BTS concerts, when like Jung Kook is speaking, I can take a sip of water - when the other kids are doing stuff - I take sips of water during those moments

Jin hyung loves his bb bunnbunn so much

• but since I'm the only one giving the comments in between, I'm the only one singing... I have almost no chances to sip water - not that I don't have any - I do drink...
• but the resulting lulls (while he's pausing to drink, etc.) ...I felt a little bleh about those pauses .. I even considered - like should I just not drink water maybe?
• but ..I don't think that's the answer.. but I am thinking about how to address that - it'll be something I have to figure out as I keep touring

nommies

• oof.. I feel like I'd normally kill all this food so fast - but I don't have an appetite right now...

• anyway~ it was such a fun/happy time

• but, inevitably, I have my limits on my physical abilities...

• you know~

• so of course I had SUCH a great time, it was SO fun, and it was awesome - but on the way out of the venue I was like O_OIHAVETODOTHISAGAINTOMORROW?!

• these are the feels I had...

• SO MUCH FUN.. but I did have these thoughts...

• I have to do this tomorrow..

• I'm sure tomorrow when I actually do get back on stage, I'll have so much fun and it'll be such a good time again and I'll be all hyped again

• Before the next concert, I have a week in between so I figure I'll be good to go by then - but I also think, next Saturday I'll be like o_O i have to do it again??

• but then I reviewed my US tour schedule.. I'll be performing 2 days in a row and then only have like 2-3 days in between before my next performance... this is my schedule

• I'm SURE that ...impromtu, I said like oh "I'll be able to handle it no problem, I'd be so happy to do it" - like I know I'm sure I probably said that.. tbh I don't actually remember saying those things ...but I know I probably did~ something like "yea I can do it all"

• and ..so ..I will be reflecting on why I did this/repenting that I have done this..

• it is.. difficult.

• my knees are numb and in pain

• but FOR SURE - it is so much fun

• so ...even today - I should keep up my physical training

• on the ride home, in the car - I was thinking oh should I work out when I get back? but ... as soon as I got to my room.. and sat on the sofa .. I figured "working out - should be tackled on the days where I don't have to perform the next day" ...I had this thought automatically~

• I bansunghamnida of my weak self

this sounds a bit more serious than it means to loll the word he uses **"반성합니다" (bansunghamnida) **can be understood like ..reflecting on something and coming to some realizations that ultimately leave you in a place of wanting to recalibrate, sometimes repenting/changing your ways, etc. - used in more serious contexts, this phrase could hold more gravitas - but here, this is more taken like "smh../why did i do this"

• Before I played "I Will Come To You/Abyss" on the piano - I prayed like PUHLEASEEE don't let me mess it up. Please let me focus on it well.

• AND - Japanese fans apparently knew a lot more Korean

• Like when I was giving comments in Japanese, but like muttered to myself in Korean things like "oh wow ARMY is doing a great job" - everyone like seemed to understand and responded

• Like simple Korean phrases - I know Japanese simple phrases too

• When I'm abroad for like a fan event or something, there are so many instances where people tell me they started learning Korean because of BTS - and it feels like that's really true because people were so responsive

• I was happy

• this is not squid it is lobster and this one is shrimp

• okay now slowly.. I .. have been thinking about wrapping this live.. but

• ...this distance between him & the phone recording his live is not a far distance - but my arm cannot reach...

• merely thinking about getting up to turn off this phone is making me so exhausted.. .chuckles incredulously to himself at the thought

someone save our bb hamster princess

• i cannot be bothered rn omg

• when did I become someone like this

• I'm actually someone that doesn't super enjoy sitting/lying down all too much

• I always like doing something ...playing games.. something

• but now that I'm exhausted... sitting here - reaching over to push the power button is so annoyinggg

• I must not have lived up to my fullest potential all these years...the fact that I was able to do things.. I think that means I wasn't exhausting myself to the fullest

• I must.. like ... like today.. :trails off:

how Korean of him loll- he's saying that in the past when he had 'extra' energy for stuff/games/etc. - it was because he was NOT this exhausted - implying he had energy to spare because he wasn't doing his utmost 1000% of the time. I love Jin's sense of humor~ sarcasm wrapped in sincerity delivered in exhaustion

fiddling w/ his food to extend the live because he is too tired to turn it off LMAO and also T_T

• I wish the phone would come next to me so he could turn it off

• When I was younger, I used to move to my full potential I think... but like 4-5 years ago, when I used to be like "ehh when I do this or that it gets so tiring..." the kids (BTS, aka his children lmao) used to come to me and say like hyung you can just do it if you exercise a bit more - JJIN you can do it you just need to workout more regularly~ etc.

• but now.. the kids come up to me and say things like "wow I feel my age now and it's not as easy blahblah"

• and to them I reply like - you guys are feeling what I've felt for the past 5 years... IN FIVE YEARS you will experience the exhaustion that I feel nowwww

• to which they reply like nah Jin then/now it'll be the same - to which I say - in five years they'll know how I felt

• BUT BY THEN - I will be experiencing my physical body five years older...
  he says "kids" but he obviously has a 5 year age gap w/ JK and is probably citing his back & forth w/ JK the most - i LOVEEE that Jin adores Jung Kook and that Jung Kook is everyone's lil bb bunncake

• sigh I don't want to get older

• mm ah no - I can do it - I can

• I will work my hardest

• Thank you to ARMY who have shown me so much love. When it comes to ARMY, I mean what can I say/do? If ARMY feels happy, I am satisfied.

• If it means bringing ARMY happiness, I will have to move more diligently, jumpeu jumpeu more, sing more

• UGH - phone... can you not just come to me speaking to the phone, yup. yah

• sighing OKAY RUN EAT JIN will continue... RUN, EAT JIN!

• next time, I will try harder and eat more ..appetizingly.. and more in general cleans plates to the side

• Thank you so much to the ARMY that came tonight - hoping for another great night tomorrow with ARMY

• Our ARMY, love youuuu heartttt
  
  

reach for your dreams the way Jin reached for his phone

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