V 1/29/2020 LIVE

TaeTae FM 6.13

It's been a while since they've done a live - so I figured I might travel back to this date 6 years ago and lo and behold, this is V from 2020. BTS didn't find me until 2023. 2020 probably held some of the darkest times for so many of us.

In January of 2020, I was reeling from the death of a family member, dealing with a slowly escalating abusive situation at my work with a previously deeply trusted superior, and rocked from walking alongside another family member with old-age-related dementia - all before news of the pandemic would break in America..and globally.

I know everyone was hit so hard in 2020 from all angles. I'm sure I've seen clips without knowing but I haven't watched any of their lives from that year. I figure now's a good a time as any to take a moment to remember how far we've come since 2020. Check in with yourself. No matter when you joined the fandom, here you are! You made it to 2026 as a human being in this complicated, terrifying, incredible world. All the wins, all the failures, all the gains, all the losses, all the decisions you've had to make, all the small joys you fought so hard to protect - give yourself a moment to dwell in your strength, your resiliency, and your growth!

And join me back in 2020 as I watch this live for the first time today to see these bingbongs on January 29, 2020.

My commentary in green.

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🎶Stacy - Quinn XCII

("TaeTae FM")

🎶Lately - Forrest., Biskwiq & Ryce

okay, yup you can come in [to the live] now, please come!

naee.. how are you?

I'm the host of TaeTae FM, Kim Taehyung (bb bear claps)

I'm really...

People have asked me to take pictures
But I thought it would be better to see faces and talk rather than pictures
So I chose this..
Last time on TaeTae FM episode 1..I was by myself

Today, there's really..
There's an unbelievable guest...
Wait just as I'm saying this, our guest has arrived

::doorbell sounds::

ah, please sit here and usually, on my radio show, the guest is king

hobi: why's your room so nice though??
V: wait why did you speakkk (V whining cuz j-hope spoke off cam before he could do the big reveal)
hobi: why's your room so nice??
V::taps seat to gesture j-hope to sit down::
hobi: your room's so nice!
V: really?

hobi: that's rightttttt idk why he says this in like a smoker's voice but LOLL our sunshine everyone
hobi: so what is this
V: huh?.. i was bored
hobi: so you did a V Live?
V: I made content
hobi: what is it?
V: It's called TaeTae FM
hobi: k..
V: now TaeTae FM will invite guests...
hobi: can i go use the bathroom real quick?
V: 😑
hobi: one sec.. imma wash my hands i'll be right backk ..wait a minute
V: 😑😑😑

hobi (off cam): wait why is your room so nice??
V: ...is your room not at least this nice?

V: as I said earlier, our guest is king
hobi back on screen: okay.. so what is this now? radio? what?
V: It's TaeTae FM and.. we'll be having a counseling time now.. so this.. I don't mean to counsel you but we're going to have a time to tell.. a time to ..
hobi (gently finishing what V had meant to say): a time to listen?[to ARMY's worries]
V::nods::
hobi: ohhh
V: so.. like through Weverse comments
hobi: i like it. did you make this up? (it's truly no wonder the maknaes love hobi because look how he's smiling EAR to EAR waiting to give props to bb V for this little content idea)
V::so proud:: i thought up the idea! in my head! .. in my head!
hobi: okay gotcha..
V: really.. no one helped me think of it
hobi: okay gotcha
V: because I was bored..
hobi: okay gotcha ..okay go ahead~

V (to ARMY): k.. so now if you give us your worries.. or send us your concerns

hobi (to V): when did you turn it on, it hasn't been that long right?
V: yup

hobi (to ARMY): oh yes, hi guys!

V (to hobi): so they're gonna update us with their concerns here ::showing j-hope his phone on weverse::
hobi: oh it's weverse okay
V: okay so now it's time we listen to ARMY's concerns

hobi (to V, reading the comment on weverse that sounds like a nonKorean ARMY trying their best to say something but it hasn't been translated accurately): "Taehyungah, speaking english.. when did you study?"
V&hobi ::laughing because the question doesn't make sense and that's the first one hobi read::

hobi: oh.. [that one's from] Jamie ssi
V::bb bear giggles::
hobi: Jamie must've used google translate so - very accurate

hobi to V: so should I just read off the concerns now?
V: yes, you have to scroll up though

hobi::scrolling through these 'concerns' lookin legit concerned AF::

hobi (reading): "My family only likes my older brother.. what should I do?"
V: hyung, you have to answer them now
hobi: O_O you want ME to answer these??

V: of course hyung you have to answer these
hobi: aghhhh
V: you gotta read their names now
hobi: okay i'll start now - that last one was from "username Kim Ahyoung is very pretttyyyyy nim" and .. it's good to like everyone yes.

(HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA) excellent 'advice' but watch V watch hobi "give this advice" loll

hobi: okay let's start officially forreal now.. ::singing::sunshine giggles::stress:: there's actually so many.. our ARMY has so many concerns.. oh! "tomorrow is the announcement of college admissions, i'm so anxious, please share some words of comfort hehe" i mean i guess less than asking for advice they're just looking for some encouragement, user "I'm on your side nim"
V: ohhh
hobi: okay.. you will for sure get admitted
V: cuz we're on your side
hobi: naee

hobi: "oppa, i'm entering college now but since i'm a *fast track student i don't think i'll be able to make friends" ... do fast tracks even exist anymore?
V: fast tracks don't exist anymore right? fast tracks don't matter anymore [when it comes to making friends]

*빠른이 (bbareunee) = "fast track" or student that skipped a grade(s) and/or was admitted earlier than normal

this user was worried they might have trouble making new friends because sometimes students in this category could be ostracized for thinking too highly of themselves (because they were admitted at a younger age than the average student and/or had the connections to be able to swing this admission some other way) and whether or not the student might actually behave in a manner that is haughty or something like that, they may have less opportunity to prove to others that they're not like that or connect with people

also, because Korean social culture is so hierarchical, usually your close friends (with whom you don't have to keep honorifics) are usually the same age/classmates and such but if this individual would be younger than all their 'classmates' - even though they're in the same grade, breaking down hierarchical barriers could be more difficult. all to say this is a legitimate concern not like an obnoxious humble brag

hobi, reading: "they say you make friends in college through drinking together - but please teach me how to befriend good friends" ...ohhhh... indeed...to be honest.. uhhhh indeed.. ::bb bear & sunshine giggles:: ...to speak on this i have to have experienced SOMETHING like this to even be able to say anything about it to user Moni's Red Bean Bun nim - just ..to be honest, I think everything comes down to confidence everyone

commenter lowkey forgot that the members of BTS did not have a 'normal' college experience at ALLLL lolll they have zero and a half recs on how to navigate 'normal' college life and making friends in 'class' for all except maybe Jin..

V: yupp
hobi: have confidence and approach your friends
V: ohh
hobi: approach them with confidence and intention .. that's how .. others will be drawn to you
V: yes
hobi: i mean but this is just my personal approach

to all you lovely people, tell me why it took me like 32 years to realize that 'i have nothing to prove'

when I first heard the lyrics "네가 뭔대 날인정해?" (who/what are you to acknowledge me?) in 2023, I felt the lyrics crystallize into music what I'd wanted to express for a long time - articulating with words and an attitude to a formless realization that had been floating around in me since ~2019...

behind closed doors, your integrity is all you have. if you're lazier than you've fooled everyone into believing, you're left with only the truth of who you could have become if you'd worked more earnestly, pursued growth more readily even when it got uncomfortable, it doesn't matter if the world thinks you're the best - you know your reality. i read somewhere that hell is 'who you are' meeting 'who you could've become' on your final day. life is life but i won't let those "two people" be different. on the flip, if you're earnestly giving life everything you've got, TRULY no matter what anyone says, you are showing up the best you can. no one else's props to you means more than you owning every ounce of your awesome and cultivating it responsibly

hobi: there are so many ways to approach this.. so you can also approach [this] in your own way - i think that would be good
V repeating hobi hyung: i think that would be good
hobi: yea

V: now just do 3 more..
hobi: 3 more??
V: yup

hobi: are there any more.. innovative concerns?
V: you have to keep scrolling up
hobi: actually to have an innovative concern is probably rare..

hobi: ...Margaret Choco Pie nim says "i have an english vocab test tomorrow, please share some hacks/tips to memorize them" ...(to V) you know why I chose this question?
V: why?

(i was gonna be like.. why has V melted into the ground but he gave his only chair to his hyungie and is kneeling/squatting on the ground.. and I crieid for 3 business days)

hobi: because you know how these days we do a lot of interviews and stuff..
V: yes
hobi: my speed of memorization has really gotten.. incredible tbh..
V: me too..
hobi: it's become incredible everyone.. so when it comes to this.. so.. for this.. you have to using it/speaking it in sentences - if there are words you're trying to memorize, you have to keep using it till it sticks
V::nodding in agreement:: true
hobi: that's how you you get it to stick... naturally

V: is there a word you've..
hobi: so like if it's "apple" you gotta be like "apple! apple!"
V: ..is there a word you've memorized in the recent past?
hobi: aishh.. okay.. "ARMY, be proud."
::sunshine teddybear giggles::

V: what does that mean?
hobi (lowkey surprised V doesn't know): huh?? it means to have confidence
V: ohhhhh
hobi continuing: yea be proud of yourself
V in awe: ohhh
hobi: yea.. it's like that

V: I found a way to answer all questions with like one non-answer answer
hobi: oh what's that? what is that?
V: so whatever question they ask, I can be like "it's not in my vocabulary"

and today i learned this is when he said this. ..and I am ded ajkfgja;ldfjglafHAHAHAHAHA oh heavens.

hobi: oh you used that today too (LOLLLL CALLED OUT IMMEDIATELY.. SO IMMEDIATELY)
V: well then, look it up

(during this time, it seems the phone they were using to read comments locked)

hobi: oh do your fingerprint (to unlock the phone)
V: oh it's this pattern ::unlocks phone w/ pattern swipe::

hobi back on track: ohhohh "it's not vocabolary? vocabullary?" (testing out different pronunciations because he's forgotten)
V explaining what it means in Korean: it's like 'that word doesn't exist in my dictionary, look it up'
hobi: mmm.. good one .. anyways be sure to keep practice using it - that's how I get it to stick
V: true
hobi: i've been practicing very hard these days ..even though .. it's not going well (haha aww, little do you know 2020 hobi that you're going to do a world tour and stun the crowd at every stop and command the dynamic of all the venues you occupy in English and Korean)

hobi: ahhhh okay "THERE'S ONLY SUGA nim" says "oppa, my skin has been breaking out a lot these days, please share some skin care tips" - to be honest, for us too, it's so hard to take care of our skin these days
V: these days.. it's truly.. like that..
hobi: so.. like in our case, we travel overseas so much.. and like every new place has different water quality right?
V: true, of course
hobi: so like our skin gets irritated really quickly.. honestly this is..first and foremost, I think the most important thing is to not be stressed out
V:sighs in deep agreement: right??
hobi: when you're stressed out... when you're stressed out, it's endless
V: your skin gets bad too
hobi: really, so like.. it's like..[when you're stressed] even if your skin might not be that bad you may tend to see yourself more negatively/harshly
V: so truee..

hobi: so i think that's first - and then i guess drink a lot of water consistently.. and sleeping well is really important too.. like sleep is really key to skin.. yea so be sure to sleep well/enough
V: but don't sleep too much
hobi: ahhh true
V: because if you sleep like 13 hours or something..
hobi: true..
V: you'll destory your [the small of your] back

hobi: okay last one i'll pick now.. i'll pick something fun... "even though it might be a little reckless, should I go the path I want to go? or should I go the safe path that my mom wants for me even if it's really not what I want?" hmm i wonder why you think it's "a little reckless"
V: mm..
hobi: right? i mean of course we'd need to hear more details on what kind of dream it is but the path you're thinking of isn't reckless, everyone. you have to trust your own thoughts and pursue what you want to have a life that is enjoyable and joyful, everyone. I wanted to say this to you so I picked this as the last question

V: and so lemme ask you a question too
hobi: oh you're going to ask a question..? to me??
V: yes. BLACK SWAN.
hobi: ..ok..
V: what'd you think of it today?
hobi: oh black swan.. it just dropped today? (this live is from January 29, 2020) and the song was released on January 17, 2020, a reaction video to a 'Black Swan' art film (featuring dancers that are not BTS) released January 19, 2020, the official music video released on March 4, 2020, so I'm not sure what was released on or near the 29th - yes I looked it up.

hobi: ohh Black Swan huh.. Black Swan just came out today..? like even just before..
V: I haven't seen it yet
hobi: watch it later then, and like do a reaction to it..
V: you think it'd be out?
hobi: it just came out
V: oh really?
hobi: the platform video came out.. yea i was watching it and ..sheesh.. it came out well..
V: oh really?
hobi: yea better than I thought or worried it would...
V: mm. ..

hobi: and because we were all barefoot on stage - I think that added its own vibe to it
V: that's true.. really..

okay because i'm watching this in real time.. and this was a clue.. i finally found the performance they were talking about - they performed on []'The Late Late Show' with James Corden](https://youtu.be/F49b0Q3yKi4?si=J0uIVSF89eI0_QVj) there doesn't seem to be any official videos of this but this one works just fine

hobi: oh so if we were to share a bit of the 'behind-the-scenes' ::sunshine giggless::
V 👀: huh? whyy?? ::realizing their inside joke or whatever bursts into laughter too::

hobi: so during the middle of the performance, I got a nice swift powerful high kick ..I lost my mind during the middle of it.. and that was delivered by the person who was right next to me, everyone..
V::cracking up::speechless::embarassed cuz he's probably the deliverer of the high kick::
hobi: so if you look really carefully during the performance, ]you'll see me like this doing the choreography](https://weverse.io/bts/live/2-105470623?begin=1066).. so look carefully everyone.. i almost fainted
V: no cuz for me.. I had no feeling in my legs because I was so anxious
hobi: no like we're doing the choreography right.. and then I look next to me and it's yoongi hyung and taehyungie.. and we were SOOO close.. i was thinking i might get hit by one of these guys.. and then PRECISELY boom.. but with immense mental strength/focus..
V: truly I'm so sorry

hobi: but anyway, i think it [the performance] came out really well and James was so good with us so I think we had a good, fun time filming
V: nae..

hobi to V: how was it for you?
V: well first of all, i think it was a really comfortable broadcast/program for me - James made us feel really comfortable.. and it'd been a while since feeling this comfortable in an environment .. like a comfortable broadcast environment
hobi: mm true
V copying j-hope: 'true'
hobi: yes it was a lot of fun ..and in preparation of our comeback we're all doing our best to take care of our bodies and preparing well.. idk what you all will think of it but.. (in ENG) how boutCHU ARMY? ::moves up close to the screen::

V::immediately copying his hyung: how was it??

V: doing this alone.. being alone.. versus doing this together.. my 'energy' is so different ::points to himself::
hobi: oh is that so? ::hobi trying to get up to leave:: okay now finish up this radio thing well ::shakes V's hand and gets up::
V::shaking hobi's hand with no intention of letting him leave and sitting him back down:: no but there's this though...
hobi: ...
V: okay i just thought of this..
hobi: k..
V: okay this has ended..
hobi: k..
V: now we'll return to part 2.. so now we have to mute ourselves ::turns up the music, like 'real' RADIO programs where the hosts speak in between songs and the songs get louder once the host finishes speaking::
hobi::understanding quickly and playing along with his babybro#2:: sunshine giggles::
V::shushes him because 'they're on mute'
hobi::shakes his hand and slowly gets up to leave again::

V::claps::

♪Ordinary Joe (fr. Terry Callier) - Nujabes

(continues as only V)

so...
okay now we've entered part 2 [of TaeTae FM]
in Part 2... what should we do now.. ??

(no someone halps bb#2, he's so droopy now that sunshine hyungie left loll)

that.. wait no.. in part 2..
should I just sing my favorite song?

::plugged something portable karaoke mic and the mic says "YOU'VE JUST TURNED ON THE POWER, BLUETOOTH MODE"

there's this song I've been liking recently..
um..

♪Someone You Loved - Lewis Capaldi

Get serenaded by V.

::sings until a high part - starts belting and then turns it all off::

so.. because if I sing this part - my neighbors might come over so.. I'll only sing up to this points

(based on j-hope's comments about V's room being nice earlier, it seems they're all in a hotel)

::straight up knocks on the wall::

don't worry - the next room is a member's room

the very face of mischief
ha.ha.ha.ha

is there a song you want to listen to?
'Scenery' (Co-Composed/Co-Written by V)
falsetto? falsetto...

no can do..

Jealous? (by Nick Jonas)

ughh..
I do really like that ..

User "I always think about dropping out of school nim" says ...::turns on Jealous by Nick Jonas::

..I only know the chorus [of this song]

::turns mic back on - mic speaks again::
::sings along::
::turns mic back off::

I'll practice this song a bit more..
It's a song I used to listen to a lot..

now that I'm alone I really don't have a ton to say..

ah~
::starts humming something i don't recognize::
::turns mic back on::

🎶comethru-Jeremy Zucker

(ARMY are sending suggestions for songs and he's reading through them)

"Stigma?" (Co-written/co-composed by V)
"Euphoria?" (Co-written/co-composed by RM)

::turns on Euphoria::
Jung Kookie...
::starts singing Euphoria::

This is exclusively Jung Kookie's song so ..I can produce the kind of refreshing vibe like Jung Kookie

I'm very.. ::interpretive dance:: .. you know what I mean right?? yea..

So this is how.. by myself.. ....::reading comments::
hmm

oh I don't know who's in the next room..

🎶Never Not - Lauv

I like this..

🎶Fly Me to the Moon - Sinatra (full blown performance with seated choreography)

yea.. so..

in 8 minutes, it'll be midnight.. and I'll end it then
so we have 8 minutes to go

::quietly reading comments::

what is this?
Flower?
User Moon Song nim is asking for a song called 'Flower'

🎶Flower - Johnny Stimson (i love. this. song.)

::sings along but seems sleepy and a little embarassed he either can't sing along exactly so::

(awwwww ajdkf;gladfjg cry w/ me)

i don't know this very well
there's 5 minutes left..

in 5 minute TaeTae FM will come to an end

everyone, thanks for hanging in there..
next time TaeTae FM ..I'll look for a different guest
ha.ha.ha.ha.ha.

a lullaby? a lullaby...
::finds the key to sing this lullaby::
::sings a classic lullaby::

(i know we all know this. but V is so pretty here (vs. like hot, thirst trap, adorbs, etc. and i mean he's all these things too) but HERE, he is so PRETTY???!?!?!?!???)

::knocking on the door::

Yes, who's there?

::gets up to get the door::

V: yea so, our final guest would be.. I was going to invite this person as the very final guest.. i'll bring him out..

(tell me why this is 6 years ago and I knew j-hope would be on this because I realized I'd seen a clip from this live even though I didn't remember what the nature of the live was going to be.. but I had no idea this one would show up and I waited with baited breath as if I couldn't just fast forward to find out)

[Enter RM]

(he brought snacks. i cannot. they're both so cute and this was so unexpected. tell me why my heart's beating fast. i thought for sure it'd be one of the other maknaes)

RM: anyonghasaeyo

friends. i need you to understand that RM's voice makes me deeply unwell.

V: I welcome you to TaeTae FM.
RM (did not know V was doing this bit): ah, ...this is TaeTae FM?

V: yes, um.. this is now a radio program that handles counseling and worries and healing for ARMYs
RM: ah, I fully understand the concept
V: so you can't just do it normally.. you have to go deeper than you normally do..
RM: deep?
V: yes we're going to have a moment to have deep conversations..
RM: okay..
V: unfortunately,
RM: were you wrapping up? (he said.. in the DEEPEST VOICE YOU'VE EVER HEARDDDD. CAN DECIBELS CAUSE PREGNANCY??JDKL:GJDLFTJG)
V: yes.. in 2 minutes, we will end..
RM::bursts out laughing:: (friends, he came with snacks. he was ready.)
V: so for the next 2 minutes, I'll give you free time

RM: everyone, how did you all see Black Swan?
V: oh yes they've all seen it
RM: oh that's a true honor
V: ..before Hoseokie hyung came and I hope ARMY really enjoys it. hyung, did you watch the performance?
RM: no I haven't been able to watch it yet, I just got back from physio..
V: oh really? ::starts patting RM on the back::
RM: yes
V: because of the choreography?
RM: yes - oh but this actually is just a *trailer .. the **worst/harsher.. ***awesome parts are still to come... (re: choreography)
V: uh..

*예고편 (yaegopyun) = trailer/preview
**더 심한 거 (duh sheemhan guh) = the worse/harsher thing
***쩐다 (jjeonda) = awesome/cool/amazing, or "dope" like their song

so he's really been pulling this spoiler sht since way back here.. loll..

RM: I'll only say up to here..
V: ..yea...

RM: anyways.. everyone, i hope you've had a great time with TaeTae FM

please see the way he clutches his bags of chips...

V: so for us.. anyway.. our.. cuz .. it's only January 28 (2020 in Korea, 1/29/20 in the US) and the announcement of our album.. there's still a ways to go..
RM: correct..
V: when the album is announced ..i think.. i'd say if ARMY's shoulders were Everest riight now.. I really believe we could really pierce through to the universe..
RM: for sure, I think we can even recreate the universe
V: I believe, without a doubt, that we can even conquer it..
RM: ah, what a very destructive thought.. very nice

(they're both trying to SOUND very serious - low voice, expressionless, serious cadence, both speaking in formal korean, while saying very outlandish things...)
It's kinda like if you and your friends ever call each other sir/madam and try to speak in old english or something outta nowhere.. anyone? anyone? just me? probably not though. i have strong suspicious so many of my readers do this with their close friends/fam randomly...

look at RM's face loll this mischievous face is a sillypants vibe face lol

V: yes so ..1 minute left.. and we're done (to RM) you've worked hard
RM to V: you've worked hard.. ::handshake::

V: per chance are you my next door neighbor? (the one who's wall he knocked on)
RM: no i'm not..
V: oh really? that's a relief
RM: please rest well
V: oh cuz I screamed at the top of my lungs earlier..
RM: ah..
V: cuz if you were my next door neighbor..
RM: nope
V: you might've heard.. thank you
RM: you worked hard..
V: next time, I'll properly invite you again
RM: okay, have a good night
V to ARMY: you all worked hard ::clapclapclap:: bye!