Jin Live - 12/4
Jin drops by for his birthday live!
해피볼수데이 (*happy bowlsooday) - *happy birthday
My commentary in green.
ALSO, given I'm translating this well after the RM live, I am just extra delighted by Jin's cuteness here because we've all been feeling a lot! Jin actually doesn't normally trigger my cuteness aggression as readily as some of the other members but on this day, i am triggered loll so i apologize in advance for the cuteness-induced crashouts
Starting out hot - the name of the live "*happybowlsooday" is just a really cutesy/wonky way of phonetically spelling "happy birthday" (in English) in hangul deeply incorrectly because he's Jin and is just hilarious and adorable through and through
Hi!
Will the light be okay?
Hello
Happy birthday
::talking about his own appearance::
what the ..I look like Kobongi or something
this is a big-nosed character from an og Korean newspaper comic
hi good to see you all again
i was actually a few minutes late
i was..
weverse has this 'live rehearsal' feature where you can practice
..turns out i'd had it on rehearsal mode and was talking on that..
like no one was entering the live and i was like "what's going on??"
andthen realized i was in rehearsal mode
nae.. so that is why i'm a bit late
first of all - it's my birthday so let's do all that first before we start..
and there's a cake too
i was initially going to do this live from home but my house is kinda chaotic rn so i wound up doing it here
jaa... 5, 6, 7, 8
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday dear seokjinnieee
happy birthday to you
..i have no candles
in case you've wanted to know how to write the happy birthday song in Korean, here it is - just be sure to swap out [SEOKJINNIEE] with whatever name you mean to use
생일 축하합니다
생일 축하합니다
사랑하는 [석진이]
생일 축하합니다
thank you everyone
hm.. the lighting looks a little weird right now
okay.. no?
let me just push back the light a little more everyone
not cultural, but they use this word SOO MUCH on lives it's probably good just to recognize it
*조명 (jo myung) = light
they're ALWAYS fiddling with their lighting so once you learn this word, you'll catch it ALL THE TIME haha
our bb princess hamster is the best looking vampire babypookie mat hyung to ever exist but because he's talked about it SO MUCH i also can't help but notice how the light hits his nose and it is cracking me up... but i just think he looks super cute.. 33 in the WHERE?? WHERE ON THIS MAN does anything look 33 years of age?? loll if you told me he debuted like 3 months ago, i'd believe you if i didn't know any better
i should've gotten my makeup done or something before coming but
lemme push it [the light] back just a little bit further
......
my hair is the problem timestamp (he does a little hamster princess bow and i wuv him)
okay this is what i'll do
*jaa... so everyone.. it is once again ...my birthday
last year i wanted to do something but prepping for this and that .. i couldn't do it last year so this year i wanted to do a live
i wanted to do like something special but..
when i'm abroad ..i did things like gaming lives..
but in the office, i don't have anything like that set up
and like a gaming live for my birthday doesn't feel quite right either..
Jung Kook's been doing a great job .. Jung Kook and his gaming live - like he's doing it SO well (that JK prepared such a legit setup)
lowkey jealous (of JK's setup)
like 'i should really set it up in my own home to do it too' ........is what i HAD been feeling.. i had those thoughts..
i did.. i had those thoughts but then.. you know.. i don't know what game(s) to play..
and i don't have the same depth of game knowledge as Jung Kook so i just play the same games i always play
so today i'm just doing a simple live with some cake and some office coffee
halp. SO CUTE jakdfl;gjlafjg;lkaj LOOK AT HIS TWINKLY GIANT EYES jakdfl;jg;loadfjg;lajdflg;jadf;lgj;ladfjg
first of all, yesterday i wanted to post something at midnight
but i didn't know.. what to say really so i just wrote something to express.. my gratitude.. with a thankful heart
i wrote something with gratitude BUT
it feels a bit like that..
idk.. seems i always just try to convey how thankful I am.. and
like ...i want to express things in a lighter/lighthearted way..
but i can't seem to do that?
i feel ..some type of way about that
it feels like i come across so 'serious'
i want to come across to you all in a light and friendly way
not in this heavy/formal sorta way
i want to come across in a light and friendly way
[but] lately, even when i try to do something light..
there are various things going on..
and since we're doing things as a group...
there are those kinds of things too...and just
so i feel like i feel a bit distant ...
so i'll try to make an effort to come across to you all in a friendlier way
to be clear, he's not saying that ARMY/he has done anything wrong necessarily
and he's not saying he no longer wants to express gratitude or is tired of that or anything either
but it's more like.. he doesn't want every post/communication to feel/sound/'weigh' the same with no variety in its essence..
i think i understand because always posting things like 'i love you thank you we miss you' on and on, even if TRULY sincere, must feel like "damnn i gotta mix it up somehow cuz i wonder if these words are HITTING the way I mean.." - i think this is true in ALL relationships/friendships right? relationships take a lot of effort to keep dynamic in a way that's still sincere - and he's wrestling with how to do that and a bit frustrated with himself that he hasn't quite figured out how to convey what he wants.. but if nothing else, we know that (1) Jin does not quit important things easily and (2) Jin is deeply hilarious so I'm sure we'll have the privilege of seeing his JIN-specific shenanigans in the coming year
so about a month ago, i wrapped my solo concert..
i was thinking about what i could do for you all
and as i was actually preparing the encore concert
since the setlist was pretty similar [to the 'regular' tour concert setlist]
i was a bit worried
even though i was preparing the encore, since it wasn't all that different..
i was worried 'what if our ARMYs don't like it.. what would i do?'
i was worried about that too
but luckily, so many people liked it
i'd prepared some new things
'Truth Untold' and 'The Astronaut'
they're both quite meaningful for me
it was my first solo song, .. my first non-BTS album song..
so the stage felt a bit like a celebration..
a warm and cozy atmosphere
so i put up those two songs on youtube so more people could see them
i did some editing too
so what'd you think everyone? was it okay?
T_T crying for three business days. I'll never get over how each of our bingbongs is SO thoughtful and how it looks so different per person because they're all so distinct... but it always hits because the sincerity is always there
also this little head scratching gesture - i don't actually know if this is ubiquitous across all cultures or if it's more Korean? or more east asian? maybe just Korean/Japanese?? I have no idea but definitely for Koreans, this head scratching posture is like the epitome of these emoji's vibes:😅/😅👉🏻👈🏻 like a sheepish, cautious 'do you approve?' 'was that okay?' type of posture- popular in anime/manhwa esp when a character doesn't know what to do, feels awkward, or maybe just made a mistake or something like that
so.. i did that..
i think it's been a while since i've done a live broadcast
so i don't really even know what i'm saying right now
just rambling at this point -.-
FREDDDDD you picked excellent hands. okay moving on...(iwillnevermoveonfromjinshands)
anyway, that's how i wrapped my solo concert
i'd been poring over what i could do for you all for my birthday and i figured 'what if i shared those stage performance videos'
so i shared those two
The Truth Untold & The Astronaut
영상 (yungsang) = "video" - i just figure this is also a word you've heard 3894573948 times
my concert ..now there's a music vide..
wait not music video..
it's been made into a movie that's coming out
*뮤비 (mYoobee) = myoo from MUsic and BEE from video/beedeo(korean accent lol) = MYOOBEE, another abbreviation
**무비 (moobee) = the ENG word "movie" said in Korean lol
they sound similar so he confused the two just for a sec.. tongue tied
so from the end of the year to January, you'll be able to see it in movie theaters worldwide
if there was anyone that was missing the concert times, i invite you all to the theater~
anyway~ happy birthday..
what did i do on my birthday in the past? i don't remember what i've done on my birthdays
what have i done on my birthdays up to now?
were the members there?
i feel like there was always something going on on my birthdays so i did something
..but this broadcast is also happening after a long time
i don't really know what to say.. timestamp
another scratchy awk move haha i think he's camera shy because it's been a while and none of his bb bingbongs are there to incite happy chaos
shall we read some comments?
happy birthday [in Korean] is the most common one
there's also "happy birthday" [in English]
there's te amo
there's you're my love
there's it's party time
cake!? yes there's cake here
shall we try some cake?
in the morning my hyung came by
i did already have a burger this morning...
but this place is supposed to be really good
when i watch Jung Kook's broadcasts, he cooks at home and stuff
this kid.. just.. there's NOTHING he can't do
so *jealous
I CRYYYYYY HE LOVES HIS BB KOOKOOBALL SO MUCHHHHH jsaz;ldfjg;lajdf;gljadfg
*부러워 (booruhwuh)= this can technically mean like 'i'm jealous/i envy that..' but in context, it's usually used more in situations where you might be jealous but it's undergirded with like a deep love/appreciation/acknowledgment of how deserving the 'recipient of jealousy' is - if it was a more vicious jealousy or you were really trying to express something that someone else has that you envy that was UNDESERVED on their part or more malicious intent/insecurity on your part - it would be expressed differently all together - all to say this is more of a humble brag of his little kookooball than a confession of envy over anything JK has/does (same goes for earlier when he said this)
he does everything so well
oh yummy! ::eating cake::
just because. adorbs.
i'm practicing choreography these days
and like.. all these little things i'm doing
all these little things ..like there's a lot so they add up
our kids too
CRYING FOR +3 BUSINESS DAYS over how much he loves his 6 children T_T #emotional #notokay is the moon in asparagus or whatever because i am IN MY FEELS today..
each of them like..
there are friends off to pursue their personal ambassador responsibilities
friends shooting commercials
friends doing this and that
but all together BTS..
what is there like.. ::hamster cough:: prepping for performances.. the album..
nae.. these things.. i think we're all really busy with these things
for me today, the plan is to do this live.. and then practice choreography with the members
then to have dinner with my family
what are you all doing today?
ayyy if any one of the members popped in right now i could just be like
"ayyyy.. 야~ 임마~ it's my birthdayyy..." and i wanna mess with them a bit.. but these kids didn't even leave for work yet..
(🥺😭🥺) not him going on to perform a whole hamster & kookooball skit for us right now
like AYYYY if Jung Kookie was here.. i could be like AYYY Jung Kookie come heree.. and he'd be like "ah hyung whyyyy" and i'd be all "it's your hyung's birthday, gimme a kiss on the cheek" and he'd be all "hyung what are you talking about - leave me aloneee" and then i could give him a hard time and but... these.. our kids haven't even left for work yet ..
yea so anyway it's my birthday
HAHAHA aw
so yea if you look up here... this is the painting I did.. for the Happy Album - didn't it come out so nice?
by any chance have you all..
cuz once we eventually put out our album
we'll have to do promotions and stuff like that right?
do you all have any programs that you'd really like for us to be on?
when i was doing all my solo stuff- i just kept asking the fans
and then based on the order of popularity [of the suggestions].. basically yea.. based on the order of popularity
the ones you wanted the most - i reached out to those shows to be like 'please let me be on your show'
'our fans really want to see me on your show - please let me be on your show'
so do you all have any suggestions like that?
hm.. as it is my birthday.. all the comments seem to just be 'happy birthday' haha..
doing this through comments.. i guess is not easy..
how old am i? i'm 33 years old now - in Korean age, i'd be 35.. but now that Korean age system has been done away with.. i'm 33
so really - as of my birthday, i'm now 2 years younger than i was... which is ..good...
#btsmath = once Jin hit like 25, he was 30-35 for like a solid decade.. 😑🤣
Run BTS? Run BTS [in Korean]!
oh if we do Run BTS... i think it will be good.. but.. Run BTS.. the scale has gotten so big that..
but i think we really did everything that we could've possibly done during the Run BTS era..idk if there's anything left to take on...
MINBRO enters offscreen
For Baby ARMY, "Min Bro" or MinSeong Kim is BigHit's Music Performance Director, you've definitely seen him dancing with most of the members one time or another whether it was formally on stage in an official performance or during one of their behind the scenes practice clips, he's this guy👇 (on the very right, wearing yellow?khaki jacket)
(formal)hello
*안녕하십니까 (anyonghashimnikka) = formal way of saying hello/greeting people you have a lot of deference for / large groups like at the beginning of a speech or something like that
our choreography instructor has just come in
this choreography instructor is the kind of person who..
he's known us since we were trainees.. and at the beginning of our debut ..
when we were trainees at the beginning of our debut, there was a teacher named Son Sung Deuk (now Executive Director of HYBE America)
and he (Son Sung Deuk) would create these dances and then sort've like in a part-time job kind of way
well not part-time job.. but no yea.. kinda like in a part-time job kinda way - he'd stick this teacher with us to help us work it out and go over it with us ..and so that's like..
what like 15years.. I've known this teacher
and now that teacher is our choreography team leader
we call him "Min Bro" "Min Bro"
everyday..
cuz like 15 years ago.. 14 years ago?
i've known him since I was 20 years old..
all the time with his bag like this this and he [Minbro] also ..14 years ago was young.. and he'd come in with his backpack.. and he'd be like 'yo'
everytime he'd come in ..
i'm definitely in whatever phase of being a woman ... makes me cry at everything. ..so that's cool i guess
and we'd ALWAYS mimic him doing that
he'd do that little 'yo' everytime he saw us
he has left [the room]
give you an album spoiler? an album spoiler? ...
hm.. give you an album spoiler.. i can't just do that can i?
but okay first off - i've heard all the songs..
all the songs are written.. but like when you make music.. you have to mix, master, and you know ..all that stuff right?
so.. since we're in the process of doing that..
and like our kids..our members this time they reallyyy like did a greattt jobb
while I was on tour they ::sound effect:: did everythingggg
i mean when i got back like everything was basically finished
i was like 'you guys are seriously incredible'
our kids made like some DOZENS of songs..
and from there we kept narrowing it down further and further..
and from that the songs for the album were decided
our kids are so talented
they're geniuses.. geniuses .. they do everything so well.. there's nothing they can't do
sobbing for +6 more days thanks bye.
Jin speaking like this about his brothers reminds me of this clip... during one of the lives of one of his last tour destinations and just the palpable relief he showed with his expression and body langugage in that he's not going to be alone anymore.. they're back together now.. please watch and cry with me..
this is neither here nor there but tell me why he's conducting this live scrunched in a ball T_T making me bawl my face off lookin like the tiniest pooks🤏🏻 lowkey also wonder if he's cold, someone burritoblanket this hamster posthaste
💬be sure to take care of yourself while you keep going
i'm healthy.. i workout.. well not these days but..
while i was on tour i was like 'i have to be kinda healthy' so i worke...
actually while i was on tour - it's because i had nothing else to do.. so i did actually workout pretty consistently..
but these days.. i lost all that muscle again so now my arms are thin again
from making me cry to cracking me up.. i am ded. ARMY whiplash is so real lmao
when the concert ended i think i rested about a week doing nothing..
just gaming
i didn't even eat.. i don't really eat well when i'm gaming
i'd eat like one meal every two days? i'd eat like that. ..
and i'd get so hungry my hands would start to jitter and stuff
and our maknae manager - with his first paycheck, he got me a present
like "i don't have a lot of money yet so i can't give you anything big but.. when you (Seokjinshi) play games you know how you don't really eat...so i got you some *grape candies so you can have these while you play games
*포도당 캔디 (pododang candy)= literally "grape sugar/glucose candy" but this sounded weird so I looked it up (as I live in America, I'm not necessarily personally privy to all the latest snacks on the Korean scene hahaha) - as it turns out, these are chewable candies that are commonly used by students during intense cram study sessions or people needing quick energy boosts to just spike their blood sugar with like.. sweetened by? grapes (the candy is not all grape-flavored) w/ some trace other stuff that claims to 'help with concentration' but idk about all that~
looks like it was made in Germany? Any German/German-based ARMY recognize this candy or this type of candy?
so i have this grape candy that I was gifted..
and i pop one of those when i'm gaming..
but so yea i lost a ton of weight..
actually now that we have to do the comeback
i should start working out and running again.. i think running is really one of the best exercises
but now that the weather's so cold .. running is kinda eh..
💬go running with taehyung?
but these days.. the weather is really not conducive to running..
in korea it's like -5~ -7 degrees celsius (19~23degrees fahrenheit) right now
in the military.. when it's like -15 or -20 degrees celsius? (-4~5 degrees fahrenheit)
we don't workout outside
maybe it was -30 degrees celsius (-22 degrees fahrenheit)? there's some standard temp where if it hits below that, we don't train in those conditions or something like that
but right now since it's -7 degrees celsius outside (19 degrees fahrenheit).. it's too cold to run outside
i always wear my *long padding when i go outside..
something like the Alo long padding and i'm always like 'i'm coldd' so i always keep a long padding and hot packs in my car because it's so cold
*"long padding" = a long puffer coat LOLL idk why this is the way it is.. i guess technically it's not wrong? but like who decided to call it this? idk hahaha and this is Jin acting out 'cold'🥺🤏🏻🥰🥰🥰
so like when i was a little bit bigger and healthier .. i think i was less cold..
in the end i think one has to gain weight AND workout in order to be less susceptible to getting cold quickly
now that i'm getting older
when i'm playing games and i get angry or frustrated.. i sweat and get all clammy
i mean i am older..
these days my members always say things like .. "hyung.. i can't believe you did all this when you this age [their age now]...wow i'm so impressed/have so much respect for you.. how did you do all that??" and i'm like "no when i did all that at your age i was fine.. " and they're all like "no but doing this at this age is SO hard" and i'm always like.. "hey i'm even 2-3 years OLDER than you all .." and then they'll be like "aigo.. you're old.."
then taehyung will pop out and be like "ahh jinnn.. you're like 40 now.."
and i'm like "i am not 40 yet.. i'm only in my mid 30s.."
and then they'll be like 'oh? Jin.. you're only in your mid 30's?"
and i'm always like 'taehyungahh please remember i'm only 3 years older than you'
and then he'll be like "mmm that's tricky" and look at me like that
he's been teasing me about the age difference since i was 25 years old even though we're ONLY 3 years apart!
so i feel a bit wronged but he's cute though so..
our taehyungie is always cute
istg Jin loves his babies so much and the maknaes get away with SO much esp JK & V..
my younger brother is 6 years younger than me and even now in his early 30's he looks like such a baby to me..
i can't imagine having someone 5 years younger than me as my PROFESSIONAL colleague/sibling cuz Jin has known JK since he was a little fetus bubble and now he's out here doing CK ads baring his abs ..tattoos.. piercings.. but still looks like a sentient twinkly bubble T_T gosh it must be so surreal to reflect back on all they've been through
our member babies whether in their 20s or 30s
so i've seen our members in their teens, 20s, and 30s..
i mean i guess our 30s aren't over yet but.. FROM THE teen dayss..
jung kook was 15
jimin was.. what was taehyung? 17
namjoonie hobi 18, yoongi was 19 so i've seen them since
i joined when i was 20 years old
wowww we've known each other for a long time
our lovable little babies
known them for so long it's kinda sickening
(🤣🥰)
but we still have a ways to go what can we do
our cute little babies will be here soon.. to practice
FRIENDS... he loves them so much. like ..we can't help but hold them so preciously because JIN CALLS THEM "CUTE LITTLE BABIES" - it's not a metaphor.. it's not slang.. he literally referred to them as "our cute little babies" please cry with me x15
i mean i know i have to come out every day now
i come out every day.. every day
but yesterday while i was coming to work
jung kook was on his phone and he started a live broadcast
like he was cooking at home
so i was like oh is practice cancelled?
and he was like 'oh i finished everything i was supposed to do so i was told it was okay..'
and so i was like.. oh.. okay then i should still go for sure
well yesterday it was cancelled and only the ppl who wanted to come out were asked to come out so
yesterday me and yoongi were the only two doing it since it'd been cancelled
with just the two of us it was hard to set up the spacing right cuz we had to leave 5 spaces empty so the two of us couldn't really find our spots
so after a little while
i was like "yoongi.. should we just pick this up next time?"
and he was like "yes hyung let's go home then" so that's how we wrapped yesterday
for sure.. after doing everything solo..
now that the kids are back it feels like the old days again..
we'd be practicing and then be like... 'ah this i hard let's sit for a sec.. let's sit"
and then we'll sit and just chat.... and then like 20 minutes.. 30 minutes.. just spent chatting away ..
talking about what happened during their enlistment times.. like what it's like to be our respective ages.. and chatting away
and so we'll like take a break and chat a little bit and we DON'T EVEN REALIZE time is passing..
bawling my face off as i type.. what is this where am i what's happening
so for a few hours.. we'll just be like 'this is so fun' and then we'll be sitting.. and then one of the members will be like 'this is the problem with us' 'we chat for too long so we can't practice' and chatting about stuff like that and then
hobi will be like ..we'll have practiced one song [tiny hamster dance].. like at this pace but then hobi will be like 'then should we just take a 10 minute break?'
and then.. who was it? jungkook? taehyung? jimin?
like "hobi hyung you changed... in the past you'd just be like .. GET UP👏🏻 GET UP👏🏻 GET UP👏🏻" but now hyung, YOU'RE suggesting we take a break?! and stuff
oh gosh these days.. (re: the live right now) now that i've been talking for so much.. it's like difficult to keep going/keep talking..
like i'm not used to just talking like this (like this one-sided talking where he has to keep driving the live and stay chatting throughout)
cuz these days i haven't been required to do any speaking like this.. since i haven't been on any programs or anything..
in the past ...on programs.. i'd just be able to go on and on.. lots of chitchat would just pour outta me but now ...
i guess i find it's a little bit more difficult
💬we miss you guys all chatting together
oh there's that too..
cuz see the thing is..
as, professionally, we are entertainers/celebrities... there's a part of us that especially wants to go on camera for our fans looking our best.. you know?
like we prefer to look our best for you all
after all, it is our profession too.. so when it's not content like.. us going camping or something like that.. or content sorta meant to show us looking disheveled, etc.
so for me..
you know how when we do concerts.. like on tour.. they film stuff like.. us on our way somewhere for work.. that kinda stuff
but then if i'm like all disheveled looking.. face puffy..
i don't really like showing that side of me too much
i feel kinda *scruffy so i only really want to come before you after i get hair/makeup done
*꼬칠꼬칠하니까 (kkotchilkkotchilhani) = scruffy, unkempt, disheveled looking
while i have a LOT to say about the craziness of Korean beauty standards - I want to point out something here, this isn't about Jin wanting to appear immaculate or feeling less than when he's looking scruffy
like ALL people - they'd prefer to look their best when they're doing professional things
i think it's important for folks not to conflate this stance with other things like in their past when they were MUCH younger, much less experienced and struggled with healthy eating habits, industry-derived pressures to stay slim/etc. which truly warrant revolution - these sentiments are not in the same category
i know even for me just on my LITTLE work zoom calls, i'd MUCH prefer to know days we'll be expected to be on camera so i can present my best self.. and no i don't feel like this ALL the time nor is it because I MUST BE DOLLED UP TO HIDE MY HIDEOUSNESS or anything like that but it's just natural for people to want to feel as confident as they can be heading into any social encounter - and sometimes that includes brushing up their physical appearance 😉
the other guys prob feel similarly
not only do we just prefer/want to show you our healthiest/best selves..
we also kinda consider that as part of our professional etiquette too
when we come out to practice.. everyone's like all scrubbed out.. so to reach out to you during those times.. is not..
is not the easiest?
but that said, now that it's our preparation period..
it's not like we really get our hair/makeup done for practice sessions...
so whenever we're able to get our hair/makeup done - we will definitely try to turn on a live for you all
i mean of course, for me, i have a lot of confidence in my face anyway
so i always wanna do stuff like this
but on days when i'm all puffed up and my hair's a wreck..
please witness our princess ham showing us "messy hair" HAHAHAHAHA ajdkf;gjladfjg;fg
i don't feel as confident [to go on cam]
we just want to show you all our best selves - that's all
this also has to do with the fact that like.. if they look tired.. probably well-intentioned? ARMY will ALWAYS friggng comment on it.. potentially with the intent to tell them like 'oh please rest' but I mean if you think back on days you showed up somewhere, especially if you WERE tired, when has it EVER made you feel better when someone points out that you look tired.. just to tell you to get some rest..
like b!$&^ if I had the margin to rest well - you couldn't STOP me from resting SO GOOD. lol leave me tf alone with my designer eyebags, my americano, and my aspirations.
anyway that's that..
i mean right now.. my hair's kinda shaggy/all over the place..
i do have to cut my hair..
like.. i feel like in the past it was a bit easier to approach this kinda stuff [turning on lives more regularly/randomly]
but these days..
this sorta "oh since we have this, we should turn on a live today.. since we have that.." i think we're kinda lacking that vibe these days
because the preparation period is the hardest..
because we had to enlist..
normally preparation takes maybe like 6-7 months.. and then we'd have to be ready to go..
but like.. the kids literally had to grow their hair back out.. and they had to let go of a lot of things..
but since we had nothing prepared like 6-7 months prior [to today/nowadays]..
and so we don't have content [now] from that time [filmed in advance 6-7 months earlier]
for us too.. it's hard to get a handle on things right now
we realize our fans are probably kinda bored..
but i mean i too think like i should've done something for today's live..
i'm lowkey regretting not getting anything done [re: hair/makeup] before i turned on the live today..
LOWKEY DID NOT KNOW HE DIDN'T HAVE MAKEUP ON??? cuz he looks immaculate jakfgj;aldfjg;lafdjg
so anyway..
oh who was the first to wish me happy birthday?
i think it was hobi...?
hobi like "happy birthday jwinn"
oh and when the kids were in the military.. i filmed 'Run Seokjin Run' right?
and some of the cast members from there sent me messages to wish me happy birthday too
before that i really didn't have many friends so
excluding family, i think i got like 3 birthday wishes a day?
i was like "oh"
but this birthday i think i got like 7 or 8
so i realized having a lot of friends is good too
and replying to them is so hard
i was so grateful
the kids were all so sincere.. like "hyung happy birthday"
there's even a friend named Son Dong-pyo from the Squid Game episodes, the littlest bb
that friend called me 3 days ago like "hyung i thought you'd be busy on your birthday so i wanted to wish you happy birthday in advance"
i was caught off guard
"ohmygosh.. thanks ..you're such a legit friend"
"no~ i mean.. i'm the first one right?"
cuz like i'm the type to always be the first [to wish someone a happy birthday]
..it occurred to me like ..ahh i guess the other person might be surprised all those times i did this first
i realized 'oh so this is how the other person might feel'
but it was really fun
*Because life is meant to be enjoyed
i was so grateful
*인생은 재미를 위해서 사는 거니까 (insaengeun jaemi-reul wihaeseo saneun geonikka) = a few ways to interpret this but in essence, something like 'because life is meant to be enjoyed' or 'life is meant for the fun of living' - in any case, i'm always deeply moved by how Jin is always saying things like he's so carefree/doesn't take things too seriously/doesn't dwell on things too long/etc. - but this has never translated, in action, to him being unappreciative of the simple things, aloof to precious moments, insensitive to others' needs - he's always deeply compassionate, deeply passionate, and deeply committed to doing things with excellence. i'm always so compelled by how differently he thinks about life [than me, much more like j-hope in practice; RM in thinking] but how similarly the core important things are expressed/upheld
miyuk gook? (seaweed soup eaten on birthdays to remind us of our mothers who traditionally are fed seaweed soup during/right after giving birth because seaweed has a lot of nutrients that restore/nourish the body after labor)
today.. probably my mom will make me some for dinner i'm thinking..
TXT? TXT.. didn't send me birthday wishes..
i mean i suppose they can forget..
i mean i don't remember to wish them happy birthdays either
they're like BTS' baby bros and are comfortable enough to talk about like this
i mean to begin with - the very act of remembering someone else's birthday is not easy..
i mean for me .. to remember someone else's birthday.. not that i do..
i mean simply to remember the day/month ..all that.. that does not come easy to me
i mean what's so special about a birthday anyway?
it's just the day you were born ..another day of work
i don't think i put a ton of meaning into birthdays for that reason..
Eat Jin..
oh yea i used to do eat jin content.. but I don't know if it's because i'm older or because I've reduced the amount of physical activity I do.. ? even the amount of food I eat has gotten way smaller.. it's not like before..
i can't even finish like one bowl. ...like somedays i can finish 2 bowls.. but somedays i can't even finish one bowl
this vibe of really 'enjoying' food has kinda faded away a bit.. and my appetite itself has dimished too..
...um.. 15seconds have passed and no one is coming into the live.. ::looks off screen for help::
oh okay they're coming in now.. they're coming in..
hi everyone
all of a sudden the screen went dark.. so i had to turn it on again
what were we talking about?
oh right, we were talking about "Eat Jin"
I mean since i don't even really have an appetite these days
i feel like it wouldn't feel genuine... [to do something like Eat Jin]
so i've stopped doing "Eat Jin"
now.. i mean even if you saw me eating now..
i bet you wouldn't feel hungry watching me eat or feel vicarious satisfaction from watching me eat..
cuz like i'd be eating like this.. timestamp
he did this to prove to us that we wouldn't feel a sense of satisfaction from watching him eat like this.. ..... . .. .....friends. does he even know us. LOLLL
if i have coffee.. i drink it for like 3 days. ..
after 3 days i feel like i shouldn't drink anymore so i throw it away but there's usually like half left
so if i have coffee at home
i drink it for like 3 days like this
😑 the ARMY whiplash 🫨
yea.. i guess so
there are a lot of people who've known us since we were young
and those people are all grown up now too
and we're all just growing old together at this point
we've been active for what .. like 14 years now
so like.. middle schoolers? elementary/middle schoolers.. when we were like 23, 24 years old?
even those kids have all grown up and gone out into society and contributing members of the workforce and such..
i hope everyone is doing well and is happy...
we've always lived our lives... doing our best
and i believe our ARMYs can do the same too
now it's about time for the members to come in
we have practice
and i need more work than they do
cuz our kids are so good at what they do
and i need more work than they do
so i have to go out and practice first
but since our kids are here
this is..
i sometimes feel this way too
sometimes there are latecomers
i sometimes am late too
since there are seven of us, it goes around like this ["it" being the person who shows up late]
one day someone's late, the next day someone else's late and stuff
it's always kind of a battle of ...trying to sense the vibes..
should I go early today? today?
and then get ready really quickly and come out
anyway, i'd like to say thank you so much for celebrating my birthday today
i want to say i'm really grateful
there must be ARMYs whose birthdays are today too
and there must be people whose birthdays were before or after today too
i hope everyone has a happy birthday
k..Seokjinnie will be back next time
happy birthday seokjin
bye bye
yup
